On learning to love my body & ponderings on the Universe..

17 June 2015

Lately I've been struggling with my body.

How I feel about it. How I speak to it. How I treat it. How I ignore it. How I abuse it. How I look at it.

It's all become a little overwhelming and has started to permeate most waking moments.

That shows my thighs too much. My love handles are too obvious in this. My bum and thighs aren't toned at all. I can feel them giggle when i walk, I wonder if people notice. Ben mustn't find me sexy with these wobbles... and it goes on and on. A constant monkey mind of nonsense. 

I'm a sensitive and over thinking soul and sometimes it's easier to push back on the things that I know will help, but it's the little steps and the little bumps of Divine Guidance that have come my way the past day or so that have allowed some relief... some space from it all.

This evening I was guided to watch & listen to a few things that have opened me up to a softer experience in my body and my Soul.

These three videos were recommended to me and so I popped my headphones in and opened my heart to their messages..

Kathryn Budig - I am a real woman, and so is every other woman

Alan Watts - The Real You

Alan Watts - You are the Eternal Universe

I let myself soak up EVERY. SINGLE. WORD. Watching these videos was a form of meditation. I cried. I was present and brutally honest with myself about how cruel I was being and how focused on the small things I was getting.

There was the realisation that I was robbing myself of my presence and power. I had been living with no perspective.

I decided to share this all tonight because I feel altered. In the best possible way... in an expanded way, closer to the truth that I already know and had simply forgotten.

I am not my body. I am not my mind. I am connected to something much bigger, more incredible and vast than I can even comprehend. I am connected to the Universe because I AM the Eternal Universe.  I am literally Stardust. 

My body, this vessel, is what carries my soul around in this lifetime.

Being present to the NOW is the only thing that matters.

I know that this is all very spiritual and these thoughts can and will pop back up when my ego is triggered, but my journey of self-love is the practice of connecting back to LOVE, back to connecting back to the vastness of the Universe and the miracle that I am by simply being alive. All it takes is a breath and the decision to choose love instead.
When I choose love for my body, for my life, for the world, for the Universe, I feel FREE.

And I will leave you this evening with this quote...

"When I look up at the night sky and I know that yes, we are part of this universe, we are in this universe, but perhaps more important than both of those facts is that the Universe is in us. 

When I reflect on that fact, I look up – many people feel small because they're small and the Universe is big – but I feel big, because my atoms came from those stars. 

There’s a level of connectivity. 

That’s really what you want in life, you want to feel connected, you want to feel relevant, you want to feel like a participant in the goings on of activities and events around you. That’s precisely what we are, just by being alive…"

- Neil DeGrasse Tyson, The Most Astounding Fact

1 comment :

  1. You are a lovely, amazing, kind, generous, wonderful human and I hope that you know this! <3


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