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20 November 2012

I have tried to start this post 4538 times today, so obviously my that day started off shit has eased into my blog brain and made me shit at this. Charming.

I have no plan as to what to write today so will start with life lately.
It's been both fantastic and awfully stressful at the same time.
The last few weekends have been such brilliant fun (centre parcs, bournemouth, seeing best friends this weekend) and for that I am grateful. So incredibly grateful.
But on the other hand there has been a lot of stress surrounding me and the people I love.
After a while that takes it toll and as a result of this I have been doing lots of things half heatedly. I have known this and it has been a niggling thought in the back of my head for a while now but today it has hit me hard.
Today I realised that I want to start getting myself back on track.
I want to go out and see my friends more, I want to meet new people and to stop saying no to things.
I want to treat my body better. I want to help my family more, to take more pictures of them all and to squeeze and cuddle Goblin more. I want to treat Ben more because my life wouldn't be the same without him. I want to cuddle everyone. I want to make people smile and laugh. I want to make people happy and proud.
I want more.
Maybe I am thinking about things too deeply, but at the moment some things are not how I want them to be and this rambling feels like my way of saying I want to be better.
I want to be better so that I can help the people I love better.
So here is to making a start and doing all of these things.

And to drinking more hot chocolate and cupcakes. Just because.

12 comments :

  1. I said it before, and I'll say it again - can I please have your hair, glasses, and one of whatever you are drinking? :)

    Here's to better, ya know? Just ...better everything.

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  2. I feel you!! Maybe it's the pregnancy hormones but I am wanting a change.

    P.S. You are so cute!

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  3. haha Love the last line. You know, it's great you realize things aren't where you like them to be and you're willing to make the effort to put them in place. It's really admirable! x

    ferdies-place.blogspot.com

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  4. I decided to get myself back on track yesterday.. it started with calling a friend who has been in limbo for months.. and now things make sense again.

    so basically we're doing this together.. shit' n all.

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  5. I'm right there with you! <3

    Jennie xo | sailorjennie.com

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  6. LOVE this post. really. dont have anything to add, every line calls my name. i come along and get back on track, too. good idea. ;)

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  7. I hear ya lady. Sometimes it's nice to re-group. There is nothing wrong with wanting more..whether it be tea or time with family.

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  8. Sounds like some great resolutions you've set out for yourself :) I get like this every few months!

    Found you through the Followers to Friends blog hop & am your newest follower.

    - Erin xo

    365mu.blogspot.co.uk - One girl's attempt at creating 365 different make-up looks in as many days

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  9. writing it down is always a great first step! cute picture.. love the scarf!

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  10. I found myself nodding to a lot of those on your list-- especially the one about taking more pictures. And I would love to be able to find some more time to spend with loved ones. Sometimes it's so hard to find a balance! Great list!

    Your blog is adorable, new follower stopping by from Followers to Friends hop! :)

    www.lifebetweenperiods.com

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  11. you are sooo cute! love your blog. I need to get myself back on track too.
    Helene in Between

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  12. Oh heck yes. I'm right there with you. I've been so stressed lately and feeling like my life is all out of whack. I'm trying to regroup too!

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